Guess who’s back? Back again? Are you singing, cause I was as I typed that.
Have you ever briefly lost your motivation to work? And then as you get your motivation back, you become overwhelmed by how much you need to do. Then you lose your motivation again as a result of that overwhelming stress? Yup, that has been my life for about a year now.
I’ll keep my reasoning brief here. There was a lot going on in 2016 that made me lose all my motivation for writing.
I was working at a job I hated, then that place closed down, a new store opened up and I was helping to get the place ready so majority of my time was spent at work.
I’d come home and I was tired and the less writing I was doing, the more overwhelmed I was getting by how much there was to do.
I was putting out half attempts at blog posts and even worse fanfic chapters. I started getting some really negative reviews, especially on one of my stories. Not like, “hey, didn’t enjoy this chapter that much”. More along the lines of telling me I should quit writing and that I was terrible at it.
I try not to let it get to me. It’s part of the business right? Not everyone is going to like your work and that’s totally fine. But I was already feeling overwhelmed and stressed and all these things combined was really making me lose my love of writing.
So I decided to take a step back. I focused on work and myself and really figuring things out.
The place I work now is fantastic, best job I’ve ever had. I’m going back to school in a few weeks and I’m beyond excited. I didn’t think I’d ever go back to school, but I decided it was the best choice for my life and my future and I can’t wait.
And I started writing again. I’ve been rewriting the old chapters of my fanfics to a level I am much happier with. I also continued working on my novel and have been writing blog posts that I actually enjoy.
I found it was becoming too much about the numbers and what other people thought and less about what I liked and what I thought.
This time away has definitely been beneficial. I feel refreshed and excited to be back and I can’t wait to see what 2018 has in store.
Thanks for sticking with me!