Back at it Again With the Blog Posts

Guess who’s back? Back again? Are you singing, cause I was as I typed that.

Have you ever briefly lost your motivation to work? And then as you get your motivation back, you become overwhelmed by how much you need to do. Then you lose your motivation again as a result of that overwhelming stress? Yup, that has been my life for about a year now.

I’ll keep my reasoning brief here. There was a lot going on in 2016 that made me lose all my motivation for writing.

I was working at a job I hated, then that place closed down, a new store opened up and I was helping to get the place ready so majority of my time was spent at work.

I’d come home and I was tired and the less writing I was doing, the more overwhelmed I was getting by how much there was to do.

I was putting out half attempts at blog posts and even worse fanfic chapters. I started getting some really negative reviews, especially on one of my stories. Not like, “hey, didn’t enjoy this chapter that much”. More along the lines of telling me I should quit writing and that I was terrible at it.

I try not to let it get to me. It’s part of the business right? Not everyone is going to like your work and that’s totally fine. But I was already feeling overwhelmed and stressed and all these things combined was really making me lose my love of writing.

So I decided to take a step back. I focused on work and myself and really figuring things out.

The place I work now is fantastic, best job I’ve ever had. I’m going back to school in a few weeks and I’m beyond excited. I didn’t think I’d ever go back to school, but I decided it was the best choice for my life and my future and I can’t wait.

And I started writing again. I’ve been rewriting the old chapters of my fanfics to a level I am much happier with. I also continued working on my novel and have been writing blog posts that I actually enjoy.

I found it was becoming too much about the numbers and what other people thought and less about what I liked and what I thought.

This time away has definitely been beneficial. I feel refreshed and excited to be back and I can’t wait to see what 2018 has in store.

Thanks for sticking with me!

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Finding the Motivation to Write

a54be2e4a2d61fd885a12d5a97956297-e1406410675140Writing is hard. Anyone who has put pen to paper or stared at a blank Word document for hours knows this. I usually find myself putting off writing in favour of binge watching some television program (as I write this I’m currently n-hours into n-days of a Gilmore Girls marathon).

Once I get started writing I find I can go on for hours. Whether it’s my own original work or a piece of fanfiction I’m working on, once I get started and get a ‘flow’ going, I find I can get a lot done. However, finding the actual motivation to start writing can be hard, sometimes even impossible. Sometimes I have to force myself to write, whether I really want to or not. While I enjoy having the ability to set my own deadlines (one of the perks of being unemployed) I also find this can also make it even harder to motivate myself.

I often go through periods of time where I get a great burst of inspiration (as I did a couple weeks ago) and can write several chapters for a couple different fanfictions and edit my first manuscript. Then there are times (like this past week) where I have hardly done any writing no matter how hard I tried to force myself. I would sit with my notebook open on my lap and a pen in my hand and I just couldn’t get the words to flow. Usually when these bouts of zero inspiration happen I give myself a few days to binge on television and movies before doing things to motivate myself to get back to writing.

Something I like doing, which seems totally counterproductive, is watching a show or a film. This is usually when I am working on a fanfiction and am trying to get back the inspiration I had when I started the work. Sometimes my lack of motivation comes from feeling like I no longer know my characters. When it’s fanfiction I’m working on this is easier to deal with because I can watch or read whatever my work is based on and find the character’s voice again. When it is my own work I find this can be harder because I am the only one who knows my characters. There is no program or novel I can reference to help me discover my own character’s voices. So finding motivation for my own work can sometimes be a little harder.

Depending on what I’m working on this could mean a few things. There is usually music involved. Whether it is my regular writing playlist (consisting of several classical pieces and scores from films) or a playlist specific to whatever I am writing about. I find music can help to drown out the thoughts and sounds that usually distract me from writing.

However, when this doesn’t work, I revert to the thing that lead me to writing in the first place: reading. Sometimes I read fanfiction that helps to inspire my ideas for my own work again. Other times I’ll read whatever current novel is sitting on my table (right now it’s Game of Thrones) or I may reread a novel that relates to the topic I’m working on. Whatever it is, I usually find that reading someone else’s work helps to inspire my own ‘creative flow’ for lack of a better word.

Motivating yourself to write can be hard, maybe even one of the hardest parts of writing. Sometimes the music, the walking, and the reading can’t even help and I find myself just having to wait out the lack of inspiration. Again, this is a perk of being unemployed. Now I must return to my Gilmore Girls marathon and attempting to motivate myself. Does anyone have anything they do to motivate themself?

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